Hello I am here to post my story of my addiction and hope for kind words of support. Though my addiction my not be in a physical drug sense, it is something that I do and thus, addicted to.
I am addicted to Porn/masturbation. It is as much of an addiction as anything else. There is a release of dopamine and other drugs from your body during this and has caused all sorts of harm to my real sex life. Thus making the real life thing not as good as what I can make it. I have had this addiction for 12 years. I hate that I cannot stop myself. It pops in your head during a weak time and you body starts to release the chemicals to convince you to just do it, it will be good, it will be okay. I can say with all certainty that there are many, many more like me. Entire books, studies, websites that all have people with the same problem. Today I come out here to help those who have the same addiction to realize they can change. Sex can be good again, you can be attracted to your partner, your addiction can stop. There are facilities in the states that are 14k for your recovery, there is a site called candeo that helps with this issue but about 600 for the year. I just want free help, which will be forum recovery. I just need more people to respond to my posts
Today is my 6th day 'sober'.
By the way, I am not religious in any way, but still don't mind being prayed for. Just don't tell me I need to go to church or prey myself. In my culture i'd probably be shot if I did, so leave it at that.
Thanks,
Melissa.