Thank you for sharing your story with us.
I think you are in a good position to get help since you understand that your drinking is out of hand. You understand what a mess drinking is causing you.
What helped me and what I would suggest is:
http://www.alcohol-focus-scotland.or...oblem-drinking
What really helped me tremendously, was going to a local Alcoholics Anonymous meeting. At my first meeting I was very surprised to see soo many different types of people, Doctors, Lawyers, Students, some Successful people, some not so successful people, but there was every kind of person. I understood that I was not alone and that many people suffer from Alcoholism. I understood that there was nothing to be ashamed of in seeking help. Perhaps it will help you. I know it has for myself and many many people. There are also many other groups and organizations that many people find help and support in as well.
There is a 24hour phone line for advice and information on local meetings in
Alcoholics Anonymous (A.A.) Great Britain
National phone line: 0845 769 7555
You have come to the right place. Keep checking in and posting here, let us know how you are doing.