Kelbell:
Getting the rug pulled out from under you leaves you feeling disoriented. I know, I've been there. I'm sorry you have to go through this, but you are not alone.
As bad as it may feel, there is a silver lining surrounding this black cloud. You are given the opportunity to begin taking care of yourself. I agree with others that says this is a good time to attend meetings and begin your journey of recovery.
Huggs and good wishes,
Hope