Thanks everyone.
I am working on the Xanax issue. I am not prescribed it. I don't even go to the Doctor. I have a chip on my shoulder that i know i need to overcome where Doctors are concerned.
I just feel like it is so hard giving up all 3 things at once. I tried it, one of them always stays around or sneaks back and leads to all 3 again. I use more pills when i drink so i want to get that in order and i guess i am just hoping the rest will follow which is stupid thinking i know. Especially when Alcohol has been a life long problem.
I don't abuse them like i was. And i keep telling myself it's not so bad. I've said before, i have my rock bottom, 2005. I always compare where i ended up then to where i am now and i convince myself that i'm not doing bad.
But i know things are far from good too. I want to be free from this so badly but i keep stepping on my own toes and falling flat on my face. I have to change something in me and i just don't know what it is right now.
Thanks again everyone.