Back to square one.....
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Back to square one.....
Hey everyone,
Long story short, i got drunk and took some pills Friday night, spent saturday feeling terrible and wondering why i did it. I thought i was doing good not wanting to drink, i had the pills down to every few days and lower doses and then in a moment of stupidity i decided to go backwards.
I am done beating myself up for it. I had 2 beers last night and took just one xanax before bed. Today is a new day, i can only hope to do better this time.
Hope everyone is doing okay
Long story short, i got drunk and took some pills Friday night, spent saturday feeling terrible and wondering why i did it. I thought i was doing good not wanting to drink, i had the pills down to every few days and lower doses and then in a moment of stupidity i decided to go backwards.
I am done beating myself up for it. I had 2 beers last night and took just one xanax before bed. Today is a new day, i can only hope to do better this time.
Hope everyone is doing okay
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Hey everyone,
Long story short, i got drunk and took some pills Friday night, spent saturday feeling terrible and wondering why i did it. I thought i was doing good not wanting to drink, i had the pills down to every few days and lower doses and then in a moment of stupidity i decided to go backwards.
I am done beating myself up for it. I had 2 beers last night and took just one xanax before bed. Today is a new day, i can only hope to do better this time.
Hope everyone is doing okay
Long story short, i got drunk and took some pills Friday night, spent saturday feeling terrible and wondering why i did it. I thought i was doing good not wanting to drink, i had the pills down to every few days and lower doses and then in a moment of stupidity i decided to go backwards.
I am done beating myself up for it. I had 2 beers last night and took just one xanax before bed. Today is a new day, i can only hope to do better this time.
Hope everyone is doing okay
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Consider that "not wanting to drink" has no relevance whatsoever, and that it is not an indicator of progress. Also, in case you didn't know, Xanax is cross tolerant with alcohol, and for many people, is the same as taking that proverbial first drink.
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Thanks everyone.
I am working on the Xanax issue. I am not prescribed it. I don't even go to the Doctor. I have a chip on my shoulder that i know i need to overcome where Doctors are concerned.
I just feel like it is so hard giving up all 3 things at once. I tried it, one of them always stays around or sneaks back and leads to all 3 again. I use more pills when i drink so i want to get that in order and i guess i am just hoping the rest will follow which is stupid thinking i know. Especially when Alcohol has been a life long problem.
I don't abuse them like i was. And i keep telling myself it's not so bad. I've said before, i have my rock bottom, 2005. I always compare where i ended up then to where i am now and i convince myself that i'm not doing bad.
But i know things are far from good too. I want to be free from this so badly but i keep stepping on my own toes and falling flat on my face. I have to change something in me and i just don't know what it is right now.
Thanks again everyone.
I am working on the Xanax issue. I am not prescribed it. I don't even go to the Doctor. I have a chip on my shoulder that i know i need to overcome where Doctors are concerned.
I just feel like it is so hard giving up all 3 things at once. I tried it, one of them always stays around or sneaks back and leads to all 3 again. I use more pills when i drink so i want to get that in order and i guess i am just hoping the rest will follow which is stupid thinking i know. Especially when Alcohol has been a life long problem.
I don't abuse them like i was. And i keep telling myself it's not so bad. I've said before, i have my rock bottom, 2005. I always compare where i ended up then to where i am now and i convince myself that i'm not doing bad.
But i know things are far from good too. I want to be free from this so badly but i keep stepping on my own toes and falling flat on my face. I have to change something in me and i just don't know what it is right now.
Thanks again everyone.
I've never done benzoes but I've seen enough threads here to suggest anyone trying to come off benzoes - especially after years of use, really needs a Dr's input tgif.
I had three interconnecting addictions too - pot, alcohol and cigarettes - I had to target them all, and get help, in order to get better.
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I had three interconnecting addictions too - pot, alcohol and cigarettes - I had to target them all, and get help, in order to get better.
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