Originally Posted by
wanttobehealthy 
1). ...I figured if he wouldn't stay connected to me on his own then id reach out to him & try to make him connect w me.
This is how I still feel whenever I get the urge to contact my RAF. I still miss the daily contact I used to have with him. There is a tiny bit of communication that takes place between us, related to his former employment, but it's impersonal right now. What I really want is to have that personal connection back, so every now and then, I still feel like I should reach out, thinking that maybe *this time* he will reply. But I know I can't make him reply. So even though it's hard, I haven't contacted him.
quetzal, I am also glad you have found SR, please keep reading and posting. It takes time but someday I do think you will be able to realize that you are "all that you need." Sending you strength.