I know how you feel jwolf. This last time before I got sober, I smoked weed daily all day. I couldn't do anything without being high. Couldn't work without being high, play with my kids, go to the store, watch tv, read, everything.
It was very strange and uncomfortable at first, and still is sometimes. But I'm finally starting to get comfortable in my own skin.
OK with being OK, if that makes sense.
I used to love being outdoors when I was high, but now I love it even more being clean and sober. All my senses are coming back online. I can really enjoy God's creation with clarity and depth that I never could while stoned or drunk.
It takes time and practice and patience, but you'll get there.
God bless.