lost.
I really stuffed up last night I drank crazily. I knew I was going to and long story short got involved in some kind of arguement with someone I have never met before over the phone and I somehow flipped the switch. Was told today by my Dad that they have never seen me that angry. I was screaming down the house. My Mum had a shaking attack last night and Dad said people are going to start turning there back on me.
My options are looking minimal and Dad says I have much to lose at the moment and he's right......Today is Day 1 I'm very shook up at the moment and know I will sink deeper if I continue to drink. Very shattering experience. The last few months have been brutal and I'm starting to crack. I will have to get sober before everyone turns there back on me especially my family. This drinking bout was bound to happen sometime I know what I need to do so I'll just get on with it and stay sober.