God this sucks.
I'm having a rough day today, it seems like everything is going wrong at once. A lot of little stuff that is adding up to me wanting a drink, and trying really hard to think positively and think of how I've avoided it for 24 days now and remember how $hitty it feels when the high wears off. But right now i'd do anything to feel good for at least a little while. I know that alcohol is not the answer, and I want to stay sober until the "miracle" happens; I'm just not sure what the miracle i'm looking for is. Can anyone share with me PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE about the miracle that they experienced? When, where, what happened, how did you know it was a miracle?
I'm determined to stay sober long enough for a miracle to happend, but that seems like its so far off. Especially when i don't know what it is I'm looking for.
thanks,
bea
