Hey kiddo, I will be there for you, you can count on me, I know what its like for someone to tear your guts out and laugh at you while you are on the ground.
I will be your rock, that's what we do for each other here.
You can do this, it will hurt like hell at first, but I have to tell you, after 15 years with an abuser i found an angel, they are out there, I have the most wonderful wife now, and 2 beautiful kids.
I hope you kind get some rest, you need to take care of you, eat right, pray or meditate, exercise, and be proud of yourself.
You are a good person and you derserve good things.
Sweet dreams,
Bill