Hi Sissy,
Sorry to hear you are feeling down. It is difficult when you feel like this to do anything that has been suggested and good suggestions might I add.
I have been following your posts and I remember a similar post a few months back. Have you been feeling like this for all of this time?
I am coming up to 8 months now and I think at around 6 months I had an incredible desire to drink which surprised me. It was triggered by anger and tiredness, I think. I managed to overcome the craving and since that nothing like it. It was like the AV was giving it one last shot before it scuttled off. I think there are milestones along the way in recovery.
I have a program of recovery, I use this site and AA. Take the advice given, make lists see a doctor, find a program. You need to take action even though you have no desire or energy to do so. Your energy will come back once you start.
I have a lot of faith in your recovery and I know that you can make it. It is up to you to instigate the changes.
All the best
CaiHong