I feel for you fragrantrose. If I even had one drink I would feel anxious and down the next day...many people don't but we are all unique so sometimes there's no rhyme or reason. Personally I think I used alcohol to ease my anxiety which of course was 100 times worse when I came down. And when I would binge, I would be so depressed it would take days to get over. I am just about to hit a week tomorrow and I can tell you that I already feel so much better without alcohol. Not perfect. But improved and improving everyday. I hope you find the tools you need to feel better and I am in a new area too with little support but SR helps tremendously. We are all here for you and usually someone is there to respond no matter what time of day.