I care if I'm sober, and so does my family since they were the recipients of all of my horrible behavior when I was drunk. I have relapsed twice and each time it got worse. After my last relapse (horribly drunk on Christmas Eve, lashing out at my family and then falling and cracking a couple of ribs), I can't even imagine how much worse it would be if I relapsed AGAIN. No, no, no, not going there!