Hey DA. Merry Christmas to you. Hope those thoughts go away. I have never taken valium but I have had my share of xanax and opiates. Have you tried any kiind of talk therapy for the anxiety? I have heard that meditation and exercise work well also.
Don't know how long you have been sober, but after 30 days for me the anxiety has lessoned quite a bit. Praying for you.
God bless.