Hi lonelygal, I really feel the loneliness in your post. With recovery, we sometimes just have to go it alone and let the chips fall where they may. You sound like you've given this a ton of thought; and truly want to change your life and be the best mama possible
That is wonderful! Your son will benefit forever from your decision. Let your husband do as he will. Focus on you. You can do this. Please keep up posted! Welcome to SR, there is so much support and information here, I hope you find it as helpful as I have.