Welcome justbreathenow!
Alcohol took me to that place of hopelessness, too. I lived on this forum at first, taking it one hour at a time. Things really do get better. Drinking used to be the only thing I looked forward to, and now I wouldn't trade my life for anything.
The good stuff will come back - it's just your addiction trying to convince you that you can't live without it. Not true!:ghug3