Noblecause,
The world of sudden sobriety is new to us because we haven't been there in a while and we are physically adjusting to living and functioning without booze. They say it takes as long as 12 weeks for the body to physically adjust. So you are on a journey. As time goes on you will feel better, cravings will decrease, and your self esteem will improve. The real you - a better one - will emerge. Hang in there, the journey is well worth it.