Need Help now, husband has been using and hiding his use for months now, we are at least making attempts to have conversation, the lies the lack the hiding, however, I am hurting, I am not a user, I have never tried crack, he has admitted his use, but not how long, nor how much. Today he says he went to a counselor, ( I no longer trust what he says). Whatever steps he takes to curb or seek help are fine, I am fed up. I am hurting and empty. His weight loss, the wasted food, the time loss, the disconnected power, the missing bill money. Sure he needs help with his addiction, I need help living with him. He's totaled 2 cars, takes no responsibility for his actions and expects complete trust. Yes I am a newcomer, and need conversation, Not to tear him down, he's already a shattered man. I need something to strenghten me. I don't know how ato attend a meeting, actually I don't know if there is one for the partners of a user who is a non-user, and what if I find a group for me, an explode- at this point, if another crack user asks for spare change or a cigerette I may tell them exactly what is on my mind, and at this point right now that's a dangerous statement.
