My BF got clean, then started using a different DOC. He is, by always choosing to use over our relationship, pushing ME away. ME?! Who's been sooo good to him. Who loves him, etc etc etc
It's a hard blow to my ego.
He goes MIA on a regular basis, and I leave it go for a few days, then get to worrying about him and make contact. Invariably he's fine, having "alone" time as he calls it. Using.
Tonight, he snapped at me nastily. Telling me that everyone who is in his life HAS to deal with this behavior from him, the MIA thing.
And I thought "you're wrong, I DON'T have to deal with it, I have the option to leave"
I said good night. It may be good bye. I am in recovery, I know what addiction is like. I am not unsympathetic. but I don't need him treating me like crap.
he's told me in words and action that this is as good as it gets. There have been times for us that are SO much better than this, but he has a selective memory...otherwise how can he justify his behavior.
I am not going down with his ship