Thank you for all of your words of understanding and encouragement. I am going to try to attend Alanon meetings when I can.
I spent my day today being more focused on taking care of myself and the baby, like remembering to eat, rest, and drink more water. I asked my facebook friends to send prayers my way. This afternoon I got a text from him saying that he wanted to work things out and that he loves me.
He thinks I overreacted. I disagree, but have the wisdom to know that he's not at the point where he can see his drinking as a problem and trying to convince him now, is pointless. Instead I am trying to explain how he disrespected me and my feelings. Working on other core issues in our relationship.
I know that this is nowhere near the end of these problems and my struggle. I have long road ahead of me. In the long run, whether I stay or go, we will always be attached in life by our child and. His problems will always be a factor. I need to gain as many "tools" as I can to cope.