My flesh is my disease
My flesh is my disease,
sex, drugs and alcohol; now
I am walking in recovery
one day at a time.
Even though I will have
four years clean 1/12/08
that is a very short time
compared to over 38 years of
being a crazy, wild party animal.
I have never missed my past
and to be really honest I had
some fun times, while I was
destroying my health.
The life I live now is a 180 degrees
turn around, totally comfortable way
of life. I wouldn't give up the life I have
now for any drug or drink.
I often wonder why I choose the path
I went down for years, I was raised
totally the opposite way.
Was a snail hiding inside a shell
of addiction and very insecure running
from growing up.
But I do know one thing I had no idea
what love was all about. Back then
love was only all me and getting my
flesh off from sex, drugs and alcohol.
I love life and I love living and I like believe me
I have my medical problems; I am trying
my best to change my inside so my outside
will be a better man.