Sounds to me like you have exactly the same problem the rest of us have F355
If you keep going back to drinking, maybe you need to look at what you're doing to stay sober?
Maybe rehab is the answer for you - I dunno. I know the Salvation Army run free rehab programmes if money is a factor.
Maybe some of the many things you've tried before (whatever they are) are worth a second look now you've decided to really once and for all 'want off the train'?
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