Hi Bonbon
Patience is a virtue that I missed out on...but I learned that with patience and time, life gets bettter. Having a bad relationship just won't fill the gap.
Take your time and in the meantime do wonderful things for yourself. Renew acquaintances with old friends who you haven't seen for a while, make some new friends, learn to love life all by yourself.
My marriage is fine, my husband is working 3000 miles away, and as much as I miss him, I have learned to do things that I like to do. I am not lonely, even when I am alone. I read a lot, work in my garden, go to dinner or a movie with friends, and volunteer a little here and there.
Life is what you make of it, and life is for living. No one person holds the key to your happiness. You hold that key and all you have to do is put it in the lock and open the door to possibilities.
Open the door, Bonbon...you're worth the admission fee.