I think you have done a good thing for yourself by posting here instead of drinking , thats a tool I use alot , moving a muscle changing a thought . Do you use any means of f2f support ? Can you call someone and talk to them about it ? Someone who supports your decesion to not drink ? In the begining for me I sometimes had to not drink 5 minutes at a time , I can tell you the urge will pass and they will get further apart the more time you have away frm a drink , hang in there , you will be glad you did ..Trish