Have you told your husband that you are losing your faith in him, as well as your feelings for him? You need to approach this with TLC -- Truth, Love and Compassion. Live your life emmersed in those three elements and you'll find that your decisions will reflect them as well. Your husband needs to hear what you are telling us. Whatever you decide, at least you'll know you were straight forward with him -- whether he deserves it or not. You will be able to live easier with this very big decision. Good luck. Love, Kit