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For startes pleeeeeeeeeease reconcider having an affair. I think it would only make things worse!!! You don't need the added guilt!!!! If you want out go throught the correct channels so you are legally protected. You do not want him to be able to sue you for adultry.
Keep going to your meetings and talk to someone there that you know you can trust. Do you have a sponcer? If you don't than get one and start working the steps with them. Keep posting here too and get all the support you can!!!
s to you....