It doesn't really sound like you want to quit drinking. And that's okay if you want to keep drinking for a while. Just make sure that if you do decide to quit that you stick to your decision. There is a verse in the Bible that goes something like "Blessed is the man who does not condemn himself by what he approves." I am not religious, but I think this is really great advice. Don't feel guilty for drinking if you think it's okay for you to drink... sounds like common sense right?