Not stupid - just addicted. I quit Nov 2 - how silly was that right before the Holidays! But now I'm happy about the date because next year at this time I'll be able to say to myself "If I can make it through the holidays with less than 60 days under my belt I can make it this year.
Maybe you can do it now? Stop - or maybe you can plan not to drink and if you happen to re-commit after the holidays. But I'm a bit with Dee. I told myself a bunch of times I'd stop (next vacation, next summer, next fall and just about every Jan 1 for the past few years.
Hang in there