I came across as pretty negative before. I didn't mean to. I can to be pretty dramatic.
All I know is early sobriety and I'm further down the road than I've ever been before. Liberating my brain and body from alcohol has been fantastic in a scary foreign sort of way. I'm a car guy so I would think of it as having my '77 Chevy pick up suddenly replaced by this year's Ferrari...what the heck is THAT doing in my driveway...how do I drive this thing...where to?
If I take a drink I'll drive that Ferrari straight into the tree across the street! So for now I won't.