I let AH suck me back in. 2 Weeks ago My AH called and asked if I wanted to
do something? I said yes but iffy on it. We went out to a bar. Red flagg. We had 2 months of little contact. We had a talk we thought of getting back together. it lasted a week.The last few days he started the jerk talk. Today
He was over the top. I drive him crazy. I did not go after him. I messed everything up. The last 2 weeks when I stayed there I wanted to go home in the morning to my house. He took it as running away. I know it as peace. Yes he is drinking. It was really bad to do. Im kicking my own butt. We had 25 years together. I even wrote a letter for him of what I want in a marriage. I think I put it 50/50 of what needs to change. All he said after he read it was I will not stop drinking for you. I told him he has to do it for himself. He cant do it for me. I will just go back to working on me. I really wish I didnt to this. I love him but I can not fix him. Im sorry for a ramble. Just need to vent
