(((Butterfligh))) - Welcome to SR! FWIW, I'm both a recovering addict and a recovering codependent with loved ones that are addicts.
Personally? I think you've paid enough. We addicts are very resourceful...we can find what we want when we want it...good and bad. I didn't even begin to seek recovery until I got sick and tired of all the consequences that were piling up on me. My family gave me the dignity to dig a really deep hole, find my bottom, and figure a way to get back out of the whole. I will always be grateful for that.
I know it's not an easy decision, but if you read around, you'll find several others have been, or are going through similar situations.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy