Hi FLM. If you're a fruit loop we all are lol
Don't wait until NYE. Don't drink again ever. You'll be happy you even stopped this month early.
As OP said. Find a recovery program. I'm reading the big book now and will get Recovery by Choice and if neither one of them do it I'll find another resource but lets you and me get a plan.
And take as many darn showers as you want for now if it stops you from drinking. Really.
Commit to never drink again.