Hard to read some posts
Even though I stopped using cocaine in April of this year, I never really got any help for it. I don't even have anyone to talk to about it... which is why I'm glad I found this message board.
The problem is, is that I've been reading through some of the posts and they've been really getting to me... like it's triggered some bad feelings. It's hard to read about certain things. Is it good to just try to push the past away and try not to remember anything about it? Because every time I get a reminder about the past, I lose it. But I feel like I have to deal with certain issues, because they haunt me every day and it affects my life... but I don't know how to deal with it.
I start feeling hopeless and suicidal. And because of other things going on in my life, I feel so trapped and I don't know what to do.