I really don't know what to say other than I used any excuse to drink, and I seemed to always drink because of what others did to me. It was my greatest excuse especially w/my family. When I got sober and did my 4th step I found out that if I had stoped blaming others than my #1 excuse would be gone. I am so grateful I am free of being a victim today and I hope I can really believe that through the upcoming holidays.