Thank you, everyone. I truly appreciate your comments.
Well, good news and bad news....lol.
Good news first, I picked up a desire chip for the second time.
I met a woman who's celebrating her ten-year medallion on December 5th, and while she's not a sponsor per se, she gave me her number.
The pizzas were a hit--a nice break from the sandwiches, I was informed. I brought three, two meat and one veggie (for the vegetarians, whom always seem to be forgotten during fellowship).
So, onto bad news, I definitely did hit bottom. Knew I would, even as I wrote this post. I needed to go to the meeting, but I knew telling my family that would let them know I was drinking again. My ex-husband, the absolute love of my life, told me he was not coming home, as 'home' would never be a place where his only companion was a compassionless, lying drunk (and I quote).
Fair enough. He's right. I know he is. It still hurts like a son of a female dog.