Originally Posted by
akrasia 
...the reason I can't let it go it is that I STILL LOVE HIM and I STILL BELIEVE IN HIM. I see the man he is/was/is/was way way down at the bottom of all that booze.
I know the feeling here, very well. I had to get to the point where I realized that these people REALLY were holding me down, drowning me in their sickness, just by witnessing how they live their lives (not to mention the deeper involvement).
There are just some things, and some people, now, that I have to turn my head away from because associating with them puts me right back in that hole. I am responsible for me and a huge part of that responsibility is knowing what is not good for me and actively working to avoid those things (and choosing the healthier alternative). (((hugs)))