Thanks Everyone
I just wanted to say thanks to everyone for your responses.
I got through the day with him here packing his stuff. It sucked so bad!
We were both were in tears and crying. He said it was the hardest thing he ever had to do. It was the hardest thing I had to do to not smuggle myself in his car.
He says: he is going to find a new AA group, join a gym, find "healthy things" to do, in place of drinking. He said he is not filing for divorce (yet). He just wishes he understood why he craves it (alcohol) so much.
I told him in no way could I ever live with an active addict ever again.
He apologized for all he's done and said that he had a lot of growing up to do.
Tonight after he left I finally took the third step. I felt myself make the decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of God. I am not demanding an answer from God anymore, whereas before I was always demanding from Him: Will he stop? Will he get better? Will he relapse? Will we divorce? When will this happen?
Now, I know that it is in the care of God and He will let me know which way He wants it to turn out.
I gave my husband to the care of God and he will either fix him or take him away from me and I have to be ready which ever way it goes.
This still sucks!