i hear ya cynical one, its tough to shut down those feelings after all this time, but it also hurts even more that she can be so cold about it at one point and then sound like everything is going to be good the next, im glad she got help, and i had enough of her using and put the ultimatum there, if you want to be with me you gotta stop, and within 5 days she was in rehab. I just dont want this to go on forever, she is supposed to get out within the next couple of weeks, and then what?