You guys/girls are AMAZING!! I am glad I am not the only one who feels, remorse, regrets and resentments. Before I had always been left because of something they did. Now I am facing the facts of what I did. That is where all of this has boiled up. Working Steps 4-7.
I do have a sponsor who is very vey faith based. Completely believes in the disease and spiritual aspects of alcoholism.
I just dont want to hurt ANYONE again due to alcohoism. For selfish reasons or for my own self gratification.
Speaking to other people about what happened (mutual friends, most of what I got was: "Alcoholism is a lame pathetic excuse. Your just a p.o.s...")
Thank you, thank you, thank you!!