When I first came here I was still drinking because I couldn't let go of the past. Every time I began to sober up a little, I'd have terrible panic attacks, filled with remorse and guilt. Dee and Anna both gave me the advice they just gave you, and after awhile I actually paid attention. It was only then that I was able to begin healing.
Terrible and sad things happened when we drank - sometimes shameful things. To stay stuck in the past doubles the damage drinking has done to us. We wasted years being numb and in a fog - the only thing sadder than that is never enjoying the new life we have right in front of us. Enough time's been wasted for us all. Please wlaney (you too mungrylionman) stop revisiting the past and reach out for the wonderful days ahead.