Been a while
Just an update. And hoping for a few virtual hugs.
RAH was sober for almost nine months. Didn't fix our issues, and I took a job on the east coast so we could both get some clarity/work on ourselves.
We decided to regroup in a few months. I took the new job and went up to look at apartments yesterday. Last night he called.
"I need to talk to my best friend."
I knew that second. Relapse.
The signs were there. Withdrawing. No AA meetings.
Just didn't think he would do it.
Filing for divorce on Friday. Moving up here next Saturday. Not what I envisioned. Really thought we could get it sorted out if he could get the help he needs for his emotional issues. Should've known better.
Anyway, my ultimate point here is to get some hugs. And to say if you are looking for your sign to leave, let me be your sign. Nine months. Things weren't perfect, but I had hopes we would get there. Now I get to start over which is amazing and terrifying at the same time.
Thanks for letting me "speak."