Originally Posted by
soberwingz 
What part of your pattern concerns you the most?
Years ago, I'd have a drink or two on a Sunday evening. A nice way to relax. Then it expanded to Saturday ... then Friday ... then a Wednesday hump day treat. Now it's a nightly routine. That concerns me. Still, I have many friends who enjoy a nightly drink to unwind.
My focus on making sure that I have always have enough bourbon in the house.
My beginning to hide my drinking. Hiding my glass in the cabinet. Being sneaky about purchasing alcohol.
Sometimes drinking in the early afternoon when no one is around.
Things are not going in a good direction and I do need to make changes.
It's the aspects of routine that prompted my question about psychological dependence. I cut back from 101 proof to 86 and that has kept me from getting too drunk, but I feel the need to have a glass in my hand at certain times ... a drink right after work ... a drink when sitting on the couch watching TV.
Thanks for the perspective. It helps to "talk" about this as I've been keeping it to myself up until now.