Originally Posted by DrivenHeart85

Well the addictive desire will never go away completely, but I don't want to spend every day with it if I don't have to. I didn't stop drinking so I can toy with my desire for the rest of my life, if I wanted that I could go back to AA. I stopped drinking so I can go back to living life the way I want to...which includes recognizing my AV when it pops up but not incessantly antagonizing it.