Welcome lor! I didn't have anyone to talk to either - and when I came here I was amazed at all the people who were just like me. It immediately comforted me to know I wasn't alone anymore.
Congratulations on deciding to get rid of the poison from your life. I convinced myself I needed it to live - but I found out being numb and foggy isn't living at all. You can do this - and we're glad to be with you as you move forward.