Day 2 ... again
I'm not so sure my rock bottom is anywhere but the bottom of a grave. EVERY single bender is worse than the time before. The consquences are worse, the hangover (which I'm going to call withdrawals at this point) and the amount of work I miss, all of it... worse. All of my PTO goes to these binges, and every single time I say...
rock bottom... gotta stop.
I made my boss aware of the situation today, maybe the accountability will help. Unfortunately she just said, your PTO is yours to use as you see fit, just don't come to work drunk.
Then it all goes to pot after exactly 10-15 days... when I'm feeling really good about myself and my situation.
This is the most mind boggling ... situation/illness/condition I've ever faced. It literally blows my mind how the negative thoughts about drinking just "vanish" after a mere few weeks.
Heres to day 2.