I think you could be wright im still quit a shy person my self . but was brought up as a kid to always fight my corner . witch i did .that prity much alienated me from normal people to witch i still feal alien.
now adays withought opiats i can feal infearear witch is most of the time
or suppearear.
but never realy on a level with people. that could have somthing to do with the lenghth of time i have been usuing drugs .
i have used opiats since stoping methadone i.e smoking herowin on ocashion
and to be totaly onest every time i have.
ive been glade of the escape from realaty .
what has helped quit a lot are seratonem enhansing anty depresants
witch do work even after battering my reseperts for most of my life
but im still not comfertabull in my own skin
may be going back to methadone is the wright thing to do for me i now my famely think so. its sertanly better than getting hooked back on herowin.
like you said..
eny way clean you seem to have your head screwed on and im sure you will make the best disishions for you .. good luck in whatever you choose
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