I understand about dealing with others about not drinking. I haven't really told but a select few my motivating factors behind not drinking but I found once you establish a more sober living situation most people just get used to you not drinking. Some of my friends have actually become quite supportive of it. I was sober almost 90 days before I relapsed and had some drinks last week and found that the longer o went without the more the anxiety subsided and the more I got used to not drinking. It gets better. Hope you feel better.