Originally Posted by
tomdecel 
Sorry but not me. If all that I had to worry was the immediate moment, I would have continued drinking. It was the actual promise of tomorrow that pushed me over that initial misery when I did quit. Knowing in my mind, in my eyes and in my hearth that the quality of my tomorrows were directly affected by my quitting.
Clearly, I meant this in the sense of worrying about the past or stressing about the future. He seems to be struggling with this past bender, and I am trying to share the mindset that helped me escape the mentality of "Look at what I have done and how many times I have done it, how can I possibly ever
really achieve long lasting sobriety?". It's really hard to move forward when you feel locked into looking at your recent past actions. It's hard to explain, but at times I have had to pretend the past truly did not exist in order to move forward. And who knows, maybe it didn't ever really exist...