Good to see you, NC. Hope the new day is going well.
Soberlicious is right, sobriety is much easier than active alcoholism. And was I ever "active." I was physically, intellectually, and emotionally exhausted. Just completely spent. I've read enough to know you're there too. What you're feeling—the thing you want to duck from—isn't sobriety. It's the fallout from years of abusing yourself. Sobriety is what will, little by little, wash those feelings away and make you whole again.