Dan, I've gone that route of "seeing myself" as just really disgustingly over doing it, but not being able to stop until one day I realized I was waking up at 6am to go get my booze at the gas station for breakfast.
I looked at myself and wondered, WTF? is going on here? Why can't I control this? I've always been a very self disciplined person, but this alcohol was controlling me, and i'll be damnded if I'll let someone or something control ME.
Yea, I'm a control freak, even against my SELF.